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Weird and lonely

Wed May 6, 2009, 12:53 PM
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: iPod playlist
  • Reading: this as I type it
  • Watching: my life pass me by
  • Playing: the recorder
  • Eating: skinny OC bitches
  • Drinking: COFFEE!!!!!!
It's almost been a week since I moved into my new place and it's just as I expected it to be. There's a slight awkwardness in the air and no one is completely comfortable but I know that'll improve with time. This situation is just as lonely as I thougt it'd be too. With no friends or family around I'm free to do what I want when I want and with who I want without a single question. Sounds great right? Well I find it quite depressing. It makes it seem as though no one cares. Spending hours upon hours by myself also helps me focus on how lonely I am and how much I really do need companionship.

-sigh- I'm sure this'll all pass and that everything will work out and be be better with time.

BTW, I still don't have my own comp with internet so I'm using the room mates'. I hate it so much! It's so frikkin slow that I find myself going to my favorite sites less and less when before I could spend hours do it. Ah well. That'll change too eventually.

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:icontheblindprophetess:
awwwww poor you hun!! chin up! things are bound to improve :hug:

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It matters not how far apart that my heart beats from yours. I dont need anyone but you. :heart:
:icontehmonkzorz:
I miss jooooo <3

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I'M ONE BADASS FREAKING OVERLORD!!!!
:iconchristmas-chan:
I was thinking the exact same thing here the other day. I was looking for apartments in minneapolis, and I found some nice ones. But I kept thinking, OMG all alone, will I be lonely....? I usually spend most of my private time alone, drawing, hanging out on gaia, shopping etc. But there's always another person close by.

But I don't think I could live with a room mate, it would annoy me to no end if I wasn't free to do what I wanted. You know, if you don't know the person, you always have to be considerate.

I'd have gaia I guess, I could go there to chat or ask ppl for advice if I need it but still.....I'd be alone.

I usually travel alone, but it's different, you can ask the ppl at the front desk if there's any trouble, a maid cleans your room, and when I'm hungry I could just call room service.
But gaaah! where am I gonna go buy my groceries, what kind of soap do I use for this and that, how do I use a coin laundry? and where do I find one? O_O *dies* I'm a person who likes to have a map of everything and know how to use things and what to buy before I go places.
New stuff is scary T_T
But I guess I'll get used to it.
:iconchibi-cheeks:
OMG, Chris! We should totally move in together. Sure Orange County is expensive but I know it like the back of my hand and I could show you where everything is. And hey if that doesn't suit you then I wouldn't mind leaving CA if it meant I wouldn't hafta live at home or my sister but still could live with a friend.

I don't mind being neat and considerate. It comes to me naturally anyway.

It is scary for sure but I know things'll get better.

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Your ideas intrigue me and I'd like to subscribe to your news letter.
:iconchibi-cheeks:
I miss joo too. There's so much that needs to be done with SWAK.

You could call if it wouldn't be too wierd for ya.

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Your ideas intrigue me and I'd like to subscribe to your news letter.
:iconchibi-cheeks:
Thanks. With this crappy computer I can't even spend adequet(did I spell that right?)time online where my favorite people are.

Does that seem pathetic?

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Your ideas intrigue me and I'd like to subscribe to your news letter.
:icontehmonkzorz:
Maybe sometime soon o3o

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I'M ONE BADASS FREAKING OVERLORD!!!!
:icontheblindprophetess:
not at all, all my friends live 2 hours away from me so most of the time my computer is my only means of communication with the outside world, so I know exactly how you feel :(

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It matters not how far apart that my heart beats from yours. I dont need anyone but you. :heart:
:iconchristmas-chan:
But I get so cranky if I live with some one in a small space T_T If it was a big house with lots of room I'd be fine, but I'm not sure about an appartment. My friend from Japan visted me for 2 weeks a few years ago. We had the second floor to our selves, but at the end of that second week, we where almost fighting ^^;
I think we both where sick of seing eachothers faces. *lol*

I was thinking about San Diego first, but I thought I might pass out from the heat, so I think I'll go with Min. instead. ( I'll have to pass my exams first tho' ^^; )
I've already been to Min. once, so I wont be completely lost. I went shopping at Mall of America twice during my stay. It was huuuuuuuuuge O_O

Yeah, it's always scary at first, but after a few months, it all gets better :heart:

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